Goodbye

I fell in love with a man that could never be mine,
Just basking in his smile sends a tingle down my spine.
How I wish his smile was for me and just for me alone,
Yearning for an unreachable love I should have known.

The despair that overwhelms me slowly deadens me,
I wish I could return three years in the past, three years.
How different things were back then when I never met him,
The love I could never earn because I was not Kym.

Close the door to the things I do not need anymore,
To flee from this suffering turmoil, my inner war.
Goodbye to this suffering love that I have felt,
Goodbye to them all. Goodbye.

Set me free

The silence in the house deafens me,
The scent of salt washes me like a sea.
I wonder how I’ve lived all these years,
In this big house alone with my fears.
Slowly bit by bit, suffocating, eating me away,
I’ve walked on believing I’d be okay.
I’ve never noticed how empty I had been,
Until I turned back lost and worn thin.
Like a shadow of what had been, following me,
Perhaps I never truly wanted to be free.

I wanted to continue on loving you,
Remembering the scent of your shampoo,
Your smile that carried me through my dark days,
how I used to nag at you about your lazy ways,
The warmth of your arms around me at night,
And how being with you made things seem alright.
I wish you’d return to where I am waiting still,
And daybreaks and washes away the chill,
Where I wished everything had been a dream,
Where your eyes twinkle with that gleam.
I used to think that everything would be okay,
And worked hard until my worries felt so faraway.
Things are not as easy as they seemed to be,
Your love you left me no longer sets me soaring free.
This house you left me has turned into my cage.
The book I once wrote no longer has any page.

Set me free, free from this unbearable dream,
Let me live, let me regain my self-esteem.
Give me back the emotions I once had where I once smiled,
And laughed uninhibited and wild.
Set me free to fly away into the blue sky.

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A/n: I think the poem’s rhythm is rather off, but I felt if I rephrased it another way, it’d lose what I was trying to say so I didn’t fix it.

Lost truths

The thread spun, unraveling its glamour to the world,
Words unspoken, thoughts unsaid, fate unfurled.
We walked on without pausing, without looking back,
Losing the path to return, the time we spent is gone.

The train speeds on, the stops pass by in an endless array,
We watch them speed past, the colours turning to grey.
Unsure, unfamiliar, we miss the stop, unknowingly lost,
A one-way train, unrecoverable stop, we were tricked by fate.

I paused searching for something I didn’t know I wanted,
The time passed and the stop missed, they are now unwanted.
The chance for truth passed and gone without me knowing,
Looking back, how foolish I had been, how lost I was.

The thread spun, unraveling its glamour to the world,
Words unspoken, thoughts unsaid, fate unfurled.
I search for a path where the unwanted truth can be said,
Where time lost returned, where stuff we needed to say, said.

Waiting

I wait here watching the leaves fall,
The footsteps echo in the empty hall.
The windows rattle as the wind blows,
The red leaves look like the petals of a rose.
I wait for you to realize that I’m waiting,
So we can stop this game of baiting.
I hope you won’t take too long to realize,
Or I might not be here waiting when you realize.

A long time has passed since we first met,
There are many things that we forget.
But I still am here waiting for you,
Patiently waiting for you to break through.
The leaves fall as time passes me by,
The seasons pass and soon it’ll be July.
Have you realized that I have been waiting here?
I have already been waiting for a long year.
Will you realize in time before my feelings die,
Or will you be too late, realizing after I say goodbye.
I wait for you to realize that I’m waiting,
So we can stop this game of baiting.
I hope you won’t take too long to realize,
Or I might not be here waiting when you realize.

Morning Dew

Fly, high,
Away into the bright blue sky,
Away from all the never ending lies,
Away from the deafening silence.

Soar, free,
From the filth of our hearts,
From our parody of private arts,
From the things we often yearn to be.

Live, from,
The stuff that we could never be,
How we tried so hard to hide and flee,
Quietly breaking, our spirit disappears.

Exist, away,
A love that can never be returned,
When the moon rises and the earth turns,
There will never be someone there waiting.

Never cry,
For he will never see you as someone more than plain you,
For the love is transitory like the fading morning dew,
For you knew that it was never meant to be.

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A/N: Its a little strange, the poem structure that is. I hope it is a little refreshing.