The silence in the house deafens me,
The scent of salt washes me like a sea.
I wonder how I’ve lived all these years,
In this big house alone with my fears.
Slowly bit by bit, suffocating, eating me away,
I’ve walked on believing I’d be okay.
I’ve never noticed how empty I had been,
Until I turned back lost and worn thin.
Like a shadow of what had been, following me,
Perhaps I never truly wanted to be free.
I wanted to continue on loving you,
Remembering the scent of your shampoo,
Your smile that carried me through my dark days,
how I used to nag at you about your lazy ways,
The warmth of your arms around me at night,
And how being with you made things seem alright.
I wish you’d return to where I am waiting still,
And daybreaks and washes away the chill,
Where I wished everything had been a dream,
Where your eyes twinkle with that gleam.
I used to think that everything would be okay,
And worked hard until my worries felt so faraway.
Things are not as easy as they seemed to be,
Your love you left me no longer sets me soaring free.
This house you left me has turned into my cage.
The book I once wrote no longer has any page.
Set me free, free from this unbearable dream,
Let me live, let me regain my self-esteem.
Give me back the emotions I once had where I once smiled,
And laughed uninhibited and wild.
Set me free to fly away into the blue sky.
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A/n: I think the poem’s rhythm is rather off, but I felt if I rephrased it another way, it’d lose what I was trying to say so I didn’t fix it.
